July 21, 2003 - 8:18 a.m.

Ugh. My cramps and I need to crawl back into bed. Watched best friend's baby overnight, and awoke this morning to a tiny smiling face in mine, saying "Hiya!". Was cute, even though the tiny person should not be climbing out of his Pack n' Play. Put on glasses. Saw condition of apartment. Tiny person must have been awake for hours.

My closet doors were open, and every pair of shoes strewn about the bedroom. My piles of clean laundry are no longer neatly stacked. My plates have been relocated from the shelf to the couch. My stationary has been removed from the desk drawer, wrinkled, and doodled on with the bingo daubers that were safely tucked away in my foot locker before his arrival. The foot locker has been emptied, including the vibrator and box of condoms. There are sandcastles in the litter box. My hair clips and scrunchies are all over the bathroom floor. Almost every movie I own is now lacking a box. The cat toys have been stolen from the cats. The cats are cuddled in a corner, trembling in fear and have probably observed the whole damn thing.

After we took a shower, I have made myself a large pot of coffee and decided to plot my ass in front of the computer. There is no point in attempting to clean up until Satan's Spawn leaves. His mother will not be here for at least another hour.

He just brought me a warantee for my stereo. Where the hell did that come from?

Today is the day I give my boss notice of my resignment. I will be gone by late August or early September. This is so exciting. It is almost like starting a new life. I am scared shitless, as well.

Dan offered me a job waitressing in the restaurant he manages. I think I might take it, at least temporarily, to do something else for a change. I still need to get a part time job in a pharmacy somewhere, in order to remain registered and certified. The way I see it, there is no point in losing something I worked so hard to get.

I also have to give my landlord a month's notice. I will probably do so by end of the week.

My goodness. I have wanted this for so long and cannot believe I am actually going to make it happen.

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