June 26, 2003 - 8:09 p.m.

Was sent home from work today at 2 because I was annoying The Boss and there was nothing to do. Went to laundromat, and almost had heat stroke while using the dryers.

Came home, undressed, rubbed myself down with cool water, and passed out in front of the fan. I never nap in the afternoons if I can help it. I blame it on the heat. Now I'll be wide awake all night looking for things to do at 3 am.

Had creepy dream. Dreamt WPOS called my mother and went to visit her with his new girlfriend. I showed up and kicked his fucking ass in manner of Jennifer Lopez from "Enough". I was crying and screaming things like "You miserable piece of fucking slime" and "It will take my entire lifetime to wash the words 'Jizz Rag' off my forehead". He just apologized a lot and his blonde skinny girlfriend stared at me with blank expressions.

I don't even know if he has a girlfriend. I don't even know if he is still home, as his truck has not been at his parents' house all day.

I did not realize I still had so much anger. Or I was capable of such violence, even in a dream. I am not a very violent person, despite popular opinion. Barring sibling fights, I have only been in one real fight and my ass got knocked out long before I realized what was happening. I didn't even like that movie.

Maybe will have a little drinky-poo to keep away the heat and calm my nerves.

Looking forward to spending weekend with actual boyfriend. Hope period ends soon, as definitely dampers sex life.

Finished reading "Pride and Prejudice" at the laundromat. All my years of being a Jane Austen fan, and I had never read it. Very proud of myself.

As soon as sun goes down will clean the bathroom. Shower is starting to resemble a hairy beast with good taste in shampoo.

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